Crumbled Walls.

3 weeks ago (422 notes)

КАМЕНЬ. НОЖНИЦЫ. БУМАГА. ЯЩЕРИЦА. СПОК

Rock. Scissors. Paper. Lizard. Spock.

WANT

3 weeks ago

How I’ve Grown

Hello, i’m back on tumblr :)

So as my title reads - i’m just gonna use this platform to reflect. Well, type out my reflections. Not on my new ipad2 though ;)

Anyway, God has really brought me far since i’ve arrived in the UK. Wanted and still wanting to seek a deeper relationship with Him, and to have good friends. Well i achieved both of my ‘targets’, but there’s still one left with a question mark.. haha.

God has indeed blessed me with a deeper relationship with Him, even though sometimes i feel like its really dry but it is important to talk to Him everyday - just like how we’d spent time with our loved ones, our family and friends.

And i certainly did gain good friends - especially from uni - through the amount of work we’ve to do (this is only the beginning!) to the people in cafe home - thoroughly blessed. Sometimes i wonder why i don’t fit in with the rest of the crowd within the singapore society but i realised: i kinda don’t need to, well - more of like i’m contended with the people around me :)

I guess it’s still a process and i’ve gotta take it slow, but i know He’s holding my hand and is leading me onto a path which might be dark and scary, but He’ll guide me through :)

And yes - so what about my last ‘target’? i guess alot of it is dependent on His time - He has set boundaries and is protecting me… So even though i feel, well, late… He has everything in His time. And when it does come, i know i’ll be ready for it because He has already trained me and prepared me.

:)

this is only a short excerpt of whatever i’d like to type in my head, but some things are better left unsaid - or well, i’m just lazy! :p

x

1 month ago

Birthday List

So i decided to create a birthday list. also because i’m turning 21 later in november - it would be wise to give people ideas, right, hah.

- doctor who all seasons box set (or the itunes versions so i can watch on my ipad :D)

- torchwood all seasons

- friends all seasons

-

(this is all for now - gonna update when i know what i want lol)

3 months ago

#covers
#youtube
#melgcw
#ocean wide
#a thousand years
#christina perri
#the afters
#music
#twitter
#acoustic

Youtube

before i start on my actual post - I must admit even though i was feeling really lousy during CNY period, I’m okay with it now… for now. hopefully things get better!

anw, I recently started a new youtube channel to post videos of covers that I’ll be doing, so if anyone out there reads this - please like, comment & subscribe if you like :) no pressure, haha, but it’ll be good if you could pass it along to your friends as well!

& if there are any songs that you’d like me to cover i will do my utmost best :)

follow me here on twitter and youtube

& here are the two most recent videos I did :)

#1 A Thousand Years - Christina Perri
#2 Ocean Wide - The Afters

God bless, xx

3 months ago

):

probably one of the saddest periods of my life, ever.

missing home so much more.. ever since i came back to the uk during the holidays. much more knowing that i don’t have anything or really, anyone back here to look forward to. life is difficult.

this year, 2012, i’ve already missed out alot.

two reunion dinners.
one festive period.
multiple red packets to take.
many plates of food.
many people whom i miss.
family.
friends.

if i knew coming to study so far away without any friends that i can possibly celebrate festive seasons with, i wouldn’t have came.

):

no steamboat to eat this year…

my mum asked me earlier today if i had reunion dinner - my answer: no point because everyone’s always busy with exams, & there isn’t anyone to reunite with.

i tell myself this year will be better.
i tell myself that next year, when i’m in derby, it’ll be better.

will it really?

:/

-

countless meals of having tesco £2.50 meal deals. sandwiches & pasta. even if i eat in the flat it’s just salmon. or rice. plain, rice.

how much more depressing can my life be.

-

trying to hold back my tears as i spend my night in the library, again.
and i’m not even having exams.

this is too challenging,

4 months ago

#lastdayof2011

hello, 31st December.

(blessed birthday, jinz, who’s turning 12! heehee<3)

the year has passed really fast. from being in bsg, doing night shifts with fiq, syl, farid, to playing md in break room, to finally ushering guests who piss you off and refuse to adhere to the rules of the attraction, to meeting great friends (& hopefully long lasting ones), to finally leaving for the uk to study, and coming back to celebrate christmas.

it’s been a really tiring journey this year.

so many tears, countless

working in bsg really brings back fond memories :) i think i’ve made many friendships, but definitely the friendships between farmily v 2.1 & the big bsg clique has been really good. abundance of friends, which is what i kinda want/need cause school mates are nowhere to be found!

i thank God for good friends in uk too :) shi wei, anthony, mel(anie), aga, lea, alyssa - good friends from church! :)

i pray 2012 will be a good year of fruitful friendships.. friends that are so easy to talk to, friends that i’m willing to open up to (& they to me) & just to randomly talk and crap.. like a best friend.

& to brends (i still insist that the ‘d’ be added hur):

hi babe <3 i thank God for you because you’re such a lovely person to be with. you’re a really great friend that i’ve come to know for such a long time, since being in the pb & then going through the motion of jc/poly & where we are now in life. I thank you for always being there to talk to, & you’re willing to listen and give good advice (even over whatsapp - technology is good!)

i hope 2012 will be a rad year for you, study hard!<3

& thank you to these following friends whom i love vvvvv much.

- farmily v 2.1 (janz, jinz, wenz, lynz)

- bsg (vera, sheean, jaslau, pris, syl, hanisah, jy, hy, fiq, kenny, elston, mengkiat, farid, charis, xianwee)

- cefc voices, the few that i know (charlotte, kezia, asaph, jonny, jingyi, jerome)

- random people (clarence, rach chiu, glenda)

& i thank the ghui extended family - peranakan power! we will crush them like cock… roaches #likeaboss

& of course, Dad, Mum, Nat, Popo, Jiujiu, Jiuma, Yeeyee, Charr, Celine, Godma.

Here’s to a good 2012… & may we live to see the end of it (if you know what i’m talking about)

5 months ago

pre-christmas blues

why do i feel like i’ve no friends? leaving here and not coming back for 6 months things will definitely change.. & then when i head back to liverpool it’s another story. & things have begun to change. I feel that i’m not so close to any of my friends anymore. not as close as before. & it’s kinda sad to see when your friends back in liverpool are growing closer & i’m not able to forge a better friendship because i’m.. simply back home.

coming back these 3 weeks for christmas break is great tho, i def miss the family. i realised perhaps it’s because i spend so much time with my family when i go to liverpool i have nothing to do.. quite literally.

aaaah this feeling sucks.

5 months ago

Singlehood.

“The world tells us that the way to know whether two people are “right for each other” is to measure the white-hot physical attraction between the two, combined with the idea of “chemistry” on steroids — their ability to effortlessly have day-long conversations anytime about anything, punctuated by the quick, witty exchanges found mostly in edgy independent comedies. In our culture — and in many churches — “attraction,” whether purely physical or “chemistry-related,” is considered the foundational way to evaluate a potential marriage relationship.

Biblical Christians, however, are called to think differently. We are to use Scripture as the measure of our desires. We are to take every thought, every area of our lives captive to the Word of God. Thankfully, “attraction” does play a role in finding a husband or wife. Read Song of Songs sometime. Biblically, however, attraction as the world understands it cannot be the foundation on which a godly marriage is built.”

From Boundless (click here to read article)

How true, are those two paragraphs!

5 months ago

Acoustic Nights

Finally took time to do laundry (had a massive amount to do), & cleaned up my room. now on top of my bedsheet i have a nice christmas-y fleece that i bought for 3 pounds :) #happy

Finished with my presentation on globalisation & trade. While preparing for it, it totally felt like I was back doing econs in school. Glad that’s over tho, and I received a 79% :) That’s a distinction (if i’m not wrong), could’ve done better but I’m glad I scored fairly well. Being in a graded seminar was nerve wrecking tho, I didn’t think I would do well but it went rather alright :)

So there’s a strike which is gonna happen next wednesday for everyone in the public sector here in the UK. As a result, classes are cancelled! Now, I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad one - no classes = not having to wake up early which is (Y) but when it’s a week or two away from the exams, I definitely want as much revision as I can get! Instead, I have classes on tuesday and thursday. Gonna be rather tiring on thursday tho, 9am to 6.30pm. With minimal break; just 1 hour lunch break and 45mins of break inbetween each lecture/tutorial. Gonna be pretty hardcore.

The Christmas market is now up & running in town, gonna have to go down and snap some photos :) Gotta find the right people to do it with too :) But yay, I absolutely love christmas. It’s thanksgiving in the US today as well, so happy thanksgiving! I thank God for many things & people - family, friends (in SG & UK), & the providence of food, money and basic things that I have to survive with. & oh, I thank God especially for being there for me.

Paintball on Saturday morning! From what I heard from Natalie, it will hurt :/ Let’s hope I don’t come back with many bruises on my body :3 Pay to get slaughtered, haha. Hopefully I’ll know more people, & get closer to people that I already know.